Pretty Skulls with Sugar on Top!

For the record, I don't do challenges. I also avoid quilt or crochet alongs and block of the months. I don't have anything against them, really, I don't! I just have a bad habit of not finishing things. But this one.. this one I couldn't pass up!

Badass Quilter's Society Black and White Quilt Challenge

From the first second I saw the fabrics I knew I was in to the end! I ordered my challenge pack and immediately went to work on a design. 

I had a pretty good idea from the get go what I wanted to do, it was just a matter of getting it all mapped out and since I'm super sucky at math, I jumped into Photoshop. Most of my quilts are plotted out to scale in PS - it eliminates many headaches caused by trying to calculate yardage and cuts and all that other yucky stuff on paper. 


I very rarely get the chance to create for the joy of creating so I decided to do something a little different than I would normally do. I chose to roll with an appliqued design, doing my best to maximize the use of each fat quarter while showcasing them individually in a unified pattern. I was way more than a little nervous about taking on something so not the norm for me but I knew it was going to be a fun lil project, and what's the point if you're not having fun?!

I am ever so thankful for all that time I wasted years and years ago playing in

PS, because really, nothing rocks more than seeing a mock up complete with fabrics to scale! Even after years of quilting, I still have momentary anxiety every time I go to make that first cut in my fabric - POSITIVE I am going to screw something up! Being able to swap things around virtually until I am completely satisfied that I got it right is such a relief. After playing around for a bit, I love love love how this turned out! Yes, I knew it wasn't super extravagant, but it was different, and I dig different. A lot. All of the curves in the applique made me nauseous for real, but I planned to use my new lil machine to machine stitch them rather than do it by hand (pregnant - swelling makes for numb fingers). I had big plans for the quilting in the negative space that was just going to ice the hell out of this cake!

Unfortunately, not everything works out as you plan it to.

In the middle of getting all of my appliques ready to go, our unborn was diagnosed with Down's Syndrome. The testing and waiting and waiting and waiting for results was seriously debilitating for me. I somehow managed to get the sugar skull and background put together, but in the face of all other things, it sort of got set to the side. When I finally pulled myself out of my funk, there was only about a week left before the challenge deadline. I almost gave up on it, certain I would not be able to complete it. Almost.

My husband (who is totally amazing) encouraged me to get on it, so I did, because if a man tells you to get up and quilt only a fool wouldn't do as they are told! 

I am sad to say I was not able to quilt it as I had planned. It's been so long since I have attempted to FMQ anything, I just couldn't get into a good groove, (I'm actually blaming the humidity and choice in backing fabric). I knew if it didn't come out as well as I intended, I wouldn't have the time to pick it out and start over, so I settled on a nice safe meandering with simple outlines on the sugar skull. Imagine, if you will, traditional sugar skull embellishments in the negative space. Oooo! Ahhhh! 

Altering my quilting plan did leave me time to handstitch the binding though! Man, I can't say enough how much I love a handstitched binding!! I used the remaining bits of my fat quarters to bind. Waste not, want not, am I right? 

Oh, the white border was not supposed to be a simple white border. I had originally intended on using the remainder of some Michael Miller Fairy Frost Glow in the Dark that I had left from a Star Wars quilt I did a couple of years ago for that, but, alas, it is MIA somewhere in my jumbly mess of a workspace. Boo! I am sure now that the quilt is completed it will show it's face in the most obvious of places.

Pretty Skulls with Sugar on Top - 48x57

So here it is (mostly, my husband wouldn't hold still while I was trying to snap pictures). Nope. Not perfect. But I super love it! (So does my 10 year old, who was seriously standing about 2 feet away tickled to bits that she is getting Mommy's awesome new quilt). I am so happy that I decided to finish it. There is no telling when I would have found the time to pick it up again with the new one making his debut sooner than later. 

Annnddd that about covers it! I really did have fun with this one, all things considered. Don't forget that voting will open on the 1st of June so come back and vote for your favorite! *ahem*mine*ahem* 













 

A Big Story for a Lil Bitty Man

Stitchin' is not the only thing I do without a clue.

I am sure I have mentioned a time or two that I am married (to a fabulous man who I cannot imagine living life without) and am Mother to four of the most amazingly awesome children ever born to this Earth. This is a small miracle, as I was told 21 years ago that I have polycystic ovarian syndrome and would likely have difficulty conceiving. I am thankful each and everyday that I am clearly not your typical polycystic, I am truly blessed. So blessed, in fact, that we are now expecting our 5th (and final) familial addition! 

Mommy's Lil Monkeys

I am not inexperienced in the art of being pregnant. Current gestation not included, I have spent 158 months of my life incubating unborns, so when I say "Not my first day," I really mean it. I truly know what to expect when I'm expecting. So when I took that positive home pregnancy test on December 5th, 2014 I am so pro that I did not feel it was necessary to run right out and see a doctor. It was the busiest time of the year at the USPS and I was working close to 60 hours a week, taking time off for an appointment could wait a few weeks. I knew what to watch for and am aware of the closest ER should anything go awry, so.. for real, no worries!

As I mentioned in a previous post, when I finally got around to seeing a doctor my work schedule kept complicating things. I was not worried about the health of my little one, the typical tests they do in the first trimester to check for neurological defects I have always waived in the past. Knowing that my child may have any sort of health condition at that stage in my pregnancy I always believed would be more harmful than helpful, as my stress level directly affects the health of the baby, so why make things worse? I was more upset that after all of the priority shifting I had done for my job they refused to see fit to make an exception in this one instance and give me a freaking day off. So like I said, I quit that job, and I don't feel badly about it at all.

(I did manage to get into a free women's clinic and have an ultrasound done to insure that baby was safe and sound and placement was solid for my own peace of mind).

Belly bean!

After leaving my job, insurance became a small issue. My choices in OB/GYN were limited, and I may have drug my feet just a little in making a decision because, let's be honest, every woman has the right to be choosey about who messes around in their most girly of girly parts. I don't feel bad for that, either. It actually worked out better in the end that I did not select a doctor. I was home with the kids and not breaking my back sorting the mail anymore, I was eating better than I usually do, getting plenty of sleep, taking my vitamins (when I remembered) and was still more than aware of the things to watch for, so it was really no big deal anyway.

We finally got insurance squared away and to my delight I was able to return to the OB who had delivered my 2nd and 4th baby girls. She is truly an amazing woman and the doctor of choice for all the ladies in my family. I made my appointment and was actually looking forward to catching up with my good ol Doc. On the day of my first visit, I was 26 weeks and 4 days along and knew without a doubt that I would be coming home knowing the sex of our new baby and could start all the beautiful crafty things I was eager to make in gender specific colors, finally! It was going to be a good day!

I found out so much more than that, and it didn't end up being such a good day, no lie.

I will save you some of the boring details of a prenatal visit. In the beginning, it's all the same. I danced my way through the routine, so excited to see my belly bean that I could barely focus on my crochet as I sat in the lobby and waited to be called back for my ultrasound. I expected to be sitting awhile, this eager lady showed up for her appointment 45 minutes early, so I was very surprised when I was called back after 5 minutes of stitchin' (I couldn't have gotten more than 20 dc's done, it was so fast). I scooped up all of my crafty mess and tossed it in my bag and flew through the door to the ultrasound room. Luck on my side, the appointment before me was running late and the sweetheart of an ultrasound tech I had been blessed with saw no need to make me wait.

So much has changed in the miracle of ultrasound in the 14 years since my first pregnancy. Not only are the images incredibly clear (you can even tell what you're looking at most of the time!) they were displayed on an enormous flat screen in front of me so that I didn't have to strain my neck looking at the tiny monitor of yesteryear. I watched teary eyed as the tech began pointing out all the lil parts of our new baby BOY, definitely a boy, no mistake! After a few minutes of playing around it was time to start taking measurements, which normally don't interest me much, but when I noticed that the display was not only showing the measurements in mm's but estimated gestation as well, it got my attention.

I birth small babies as a general rule. I am not quite a dink, but I am smaller than your average chick my age for sure, so this has never concerned me much. All of my little ones were born under 7 lb, but healthy and thriving so nothing to worry about. At 10 years old, my oldest daughter is so petite she can wear some of her 5 year old sister's clothes, and my youngest at 2 and a half years old still fits in 9 month onesies. So when I saw that my son's femur was measuring at 24 weeks, instead of closer to the 26 weeks I knew that I was, I chalked it up to that. Tiny infants are easier to birth, right?

My tech took measurements of each femur several times, and then moved on to the humerus bones. When estimated gestation popped up at 21 weeks, I actually giggled. I couldn't help myself, I like my dinky doodles! I did say something about it though, because dink or no dink, that's a pretty big difference from my actual gestation, coupled with the length of the femurs, something began to feel.. OFF. When she measured the babies head, it measured at 27 weeks. What on earth? Faulty equipment, right? First day on the job, maybe? Something, just something! SOMETHING!

My sweet tech lady finished up her measurements and sent me out to a second lobby to wait for an exam room to open up. I knew from passing conversation that my doctor had been out on an emergency earlier that morning and was running behind so it could be awhile. I called my husband to let him know we were having a boy, and I mentioned the oddness in the measurements, and we both agreed we were just having another small baby. Yes, small baby. No worries!!

After about 25 minutes, I was taken back to have my blood drawn (I don't hate needles, I am actually a tattoo addict and would gladly sit under the gun for days on end - I do not like giving up my blood as it is essential to my existence so this was not my favorite part of the day). Vital check. Weight? Um.. okay. Blood pressure? Excellent, to my surprise! I was then shown to my exam room and directed to strip down for the dreaded PAP. Ew. So there I am, sitting on paper sticking to my bottom, covered in a sheet to small to cover my tiniest of tiny children and in walks my doctor's nurse. My doctor was being called out on a delivery, so I could go ahead and get dressed. I won't lie, I was relieved. I don't like being poked and prodded, and this would buy me some time before I had to deal with it. As I was reaching over to grab my jeans, the nurse looked over her shoulder and said, "She's in a hurry, but she really wants to discuss your ultrasound results with you before she goes", and walked out of the room.

Que?

My ultrasound results?

What was there to talk about really? He had two arms, two legs, plenty of fingers and toes. Plenty of amniotic fluid, she checked the umbilical cord and placenta, both were fine! We took a good look at his heart, brain, stomach, spine... What was there to discuss??

When my doctor breezed in a moment later, my head was still trying to wrap itself around any and all possible reasons she would delay leaving for a delivery to talk to me. I've known this woman for more than 10 years. She saved the life of my oldest daughter and performed my mother's hysterectomy, it goes without saying that I trust her implicitly. The look on her face when she sat down across from me made my heart sink.

There was something wrong.

When she started talking words like genetic defect, abnormality, thick nuchal fold, and amniocentesis fell on my ears. I was going to see a specialist to have another ultrasound done. Depending on the results of that ultrasound, she recommended the amniocentesis. I know I asked questions, but I can't remember what they were, I remember only the look on her face. So much compassion and concern. She kept saying how glad she was that I was there and wished that things weren't what they were. I remember nodding, asking them to make the appointment for me, and thanking her. I know she spent more time with me than she intended to, and from the bottom of my heart I appreciate it. She's just awesome like that.

I called my husband again while I was getting my things together to let him know he was going to have to make arrangements to go with me to see the specialist. I started trying to explain all the things that I didn't understand and before I knew it I was crying so hard I couldn't see what I was doing. Apparently, I wasn't quiet about it either, a nurse came in to check on me. I did my best to compose myself, grabbed up my bag of crochet and headed out the door.

I don't know how I got home safely. I cried the entire way to pick up my girls. Cried while talking to my father in law. Cried all the way to our house. I made the kids lunch and curled up on the couch and cried some more. I'd begin to get it together and my 5 year old would come over and rub my back or touch my cheek, and I would lose it all over again. It was not my best day.

I began to do a little research about short fetal long bones and thick nuchal folds (thank you Google for being my best friend AND worst enemy) and started reading about Down's Syndrome, Turner's Syndrome, Russell-Silvers, Dwarfism, and all the other different variations of Trisomy. I am not a complete stranger to Trisomy. I had made a memory quilt for an extended family member a couple years ago who lost a daughter to Trisomy 18. It is to this day, the quilt I am most proud of having made, and will likely always be the most difficult for me to make. I cried so much for her loss when I was working on it, I could not even begin to imagine what that would be like, carrying a child to full term and not being able to bring him/her home with you. There could be nothing worse in the world, in my opinion. 

And now.. it could be my reality.

I was so ecstatic when I found out we were having a boy. My husband would have his son to carry on our family name. A son to play catch with, teach to fish, hunt and take hiking. Do not misunderstand, I know that my girls can do all of those things, but maybe in my silly lil female head, I believe the bond built between father and son is different. It's special. Primal even. To have those hopes for my husband raised and destroyed all in one afternoon was heart-breaking. I cried as much for him as I did for myself, I knew he wouldn't.

We saw the specialist the next day, not the warmest man, but I suppose in his line of work you have to have pretty thick skin. Our lil man's measurements were still inconsistent, not as varying as the day before, but enough that it was still a concern. We chose to do the amniocentesis, knowing at that point in my pregnancy I was not likely to go into labor and if I did, the baby had a more than decent chance for survival. The amnio was not as awful as I thought it would be. It was not painful, only a little uncomfortable and STRANGE feeling, and it only lasted a moment. The hard part was over, all we could do was wait.

We were told we could have the results from the amnio back as early as Friday, but knowing my luck I knew they wouldn't be back until Monday. It was an extremely long weekend. I think I asked my husband if he was okay about a trillion times. We discussed all of the possibilities, made peace with the truth that maybe things weren't going to be perfect, but our son was going to be okay, and we would deal with whatever obstacles we may have to face as they came, together. I talked to each of my children, gave them an opportunity to ask questions and prepared them as best I could.

By Monday, I was pretty much cried out, but feeling positive that no matter what the news was, we would make the best of it.

When the phone finally rang, it was a nurse from our specialist's office. She was calling to give me the preliminary results so that I would have the opportunity to prepare any questions I might have for the doctor when he called later that afternoon. Our son was diagnosed with Trisomy 21, more commonly known as Down's Syndrome. I won't lie. I cried. I did not cry because our son has Down's. I cried so many tears of ABSOLUTE relief. Our son was going to come home! With all of the other potential outcomes of that amnio, I welcome Down's into our life!

It's going to be a long and rough road. I am not always the best at keeping a routine, I do not possess that thing others refer to as patience, and I positively suck at asking for help. But, I see it like this, I was certain that I would be a terrible parent when they placed my firstborn in my arms and he's still breathing! With the love and support of my husband, family and friends, I will not fail my son.

While there is a little confusion over my actual due date because of the differences in measurements, I am told somewhere around the 31st of July to expect the arrival of Cooper Edward Thomas Jackson. 

Cooper Edward Thomas

Cooper will be special because he is my son, and as do all of my children, he will have his own particular needs. Whatever challenges lie ahead of us, we will meet them head on, with perfect love in our hearts and hope for his health and well-being.

I may not have a clue, but I have no doubt that I will figure it out!

Like a Bad Penny

And I'm back.

I know, it's been a long time. We hardly got a chance to get acquainted and I up and left without a word. Shame on me! No, really, shame on me! Abandoning my blog isn't the worst of it, I abandoned my craft as well!

Forever ago, my father in law (career postman, among other things) told me that the USPS was hiring clerks and not only was the starting pay good, the benefits were amazing and let's be honest, who doesn't love amazing? So, more to humor him (and my husband) than anything else, I applied. When I didn't hear anything back after many weeks of waiting, I stopped waiting. I was more than content with my day to day as it were and a job would probably get in the way of my EVERYTHING, so no real sweat off my brow.

I went on with my attempts to build my crafting empire from my dining room table while keeping one good eye on my kids as they played (and tormented each other) as usual. Things were truly going well, my shop was getting a considerable amount of traffic with multiple orders to be filled, and I had just begun to fulfill a longtime desire to create and batch my own soap recipes. I was very hopeful for the future of The Two Two One!

And then the damn phone rang.

I was in the basement sorting laundry. Why I had my phone on me or why I answered a call from a number I did not recognize, I have no idea. How I even had a good enough signal to make out what the lady on the other end was saying, I will never know. In retrospect, it's always the little things that stick out in my mind - how maybe they shouldn't have been little things but perhaps a big flashing neon sign that said WARNING! SOMETHING IS WONKY HERE! Alas, there was no flashy sign, no siren, no smoke signal. I answered the phone, I listened to all the things the lady had to say, and for some Godforsaken reason, 6 months after I had applied for the job, I accepted the invitation to test and interview for a PSE position with the United States Postal Service.

Long story shorter than I would usually tell it, I got the job. I was placed at a small station not so far from home that I absolutely loved! It's located in a part of my hometown that I have always had an affinity for that after a long downward spiral is in the process of being revitalized in the best ways possible. In all fairness, I loved my job. The work was hard, the hours were crazy, and I was basically the red-headed step-child of the whole deal, but I liked it. Or rather, I liked the people I worked with, for the most part, and for me, that makes a world of difference. The money was good when I could get the hours but I never knew week to week what I would be working, where I would be working, or if there would be work for me at all. I was sent all over the city to nearly every postal station, at all hours of the day or night, always subject to call-in, no real scheduled day off, and on and on and on my list of complaints goes. It's a really long list, believe me. In the end, I quit that job, and I don't feel badly for it at all.

Truthfully, things got complicated when I found out I was pregnant in November. As my pregnancy progressed, it was clear to me that the well-being of myself and my unborn were not of any real concern to those who make the rules and it was time for me to go. After 5 months of not being able to keep a scheduled appointment with a doctor because of call-ins and schedule changes I decided that I'd rather be broke than broken.

I sold 8 long months to the USPS. 

In that time, I somehow managed to create 4 Halloween costumes and a few crocheted this and thats, to my surprise. 

My sewing machine went untouched, my neatly organized supplies were rummaged through by tiny hands that should have known better and scattered from one end of the house to the other. My workspace disappeared under a stack of unopened mail (hey, after touching that crap all day long I know you didn't think I was going to go through it when I got home!). I know that I could have found the time to work my day job (even tho my days started at 2:30 in the morning more days than not) and still continued crafting, but truth is, I was so worn down by the BS at work, I just didn't have the energy! It took weeks for me to decompress enough that I was even able to begin putting things back together. It took even longer for me to rebuild my confidence to a level that allowed me to piece together a quilt top. I was positive that I had forgotten all the little bit that I had learned and I was truly terrified of cutting fabric seriously convinced that I would ruin it.

I didn't ruin it.

My first quilting project after almost a year off was a quilt for my husband, finally. I starched, I pressed, I cut and I sewed, and it looks awesome! One of these days I will pin, quilt and bind it, but in my excitement I am still bouncing from one project to another in a hurry to do all the things that I had been missing out on. For every project I finish, I start 2, and for every project I start I plan 3 more. It's a vicious cycle, but I love it!

While you are waiting..

I know. I promised to finish the tale of how I got through that first quilt and on to the glamorous world of crafting for a living, and one day you will get the rest of that story.

That day is, sadly, not today.

You see, the hardest part of being at self-employed is my four bosses. Always changing my schedule, throwing things at me last minute, pulling me away from my daily workload to assist them in emergency rescue missions (saving yet another Littlest Pet Shop figure from a fate worse than death by dog slobber). My bosses/children/tyrants are my heart, and because they holler louder than an unfinished quilt - they will always come first. ;)

So after a pretty rough bit of phasing with my two youngest kids and summer vacation in full swing we are now getting back on a bit of a more regular schedule and it's time to oil the cogs and get this creativity machine rolling once again!

I promise, promise, promise I will get back to my first quilting adventure, but while you are waiting...

I am adding a new page to the website! It's a listing of all of my running Teespring Campaigns. Take a peek, tweet, share, pin at will! They can be found in all their super cuteness right here. Many other styles and colors are available here at my CafePress, as well!

Lots of new things coming this summer so please stay tuned!

Learning to Crawl...

“And suddenly you know: It's time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings.”
― Meister Eckhart

---

I'd like to say I am a self-taught crafter, but that would be dishonest. I am a self-Googled crafter. I typed those words into that search engine ALL BY MYSELF! The only credit I can take is that I chose a good tutorial, and I absorbed enough of what I read to apply it adequately to my project. I set out to make a quilt - and I made one - thanks to the internet.

Well, thanks to the internet, and this lady right here: JessyRatfink. Her Instructable, How to Sew a Quilt! (Quilting 101) was not the first tutorial that I found, but it was definitely the most comprehensive. She really lays it all out for ya, from materials, to tools, to tips, (she uses a mason jar next to her sewing machine to throw her thread scraps in - I have a jar as well. Mine is a pickle jar, though. It smells like pickles and makes everything pickley, but I like pickles and it's trash - why would I care if it smells like pickles?) and she also gives a rundown of quilt basics and terminology, very helpful! If you want to learn to quilt, I would recommend checking out her Instructables, (she has TONS on all kinds of subjects). She is awesome. Trust me.

I need to take a moment and offer a bit of advice to those of you who might be wanting to learn to quilt. First and foremost, don't do what I do. I am impulsive and utterly impatient. I am absolutely one of those instant gratification people, if the seeds I sow do not produce fruit almost IMMEDIATELY, I often give up and move on to the next thing I have chosen to waste time and money on. The best thing I can impart upon you is this - do a LOT of research! Read a LOT of tutorials. Ask a LOT of questions. There are some that would argue, but I am of the opinion that there is no wrong way to make a quilt. Pick and choose the methods, techniques and tips that suit you best, and make it your own! That is part of the fun, and hobbies are supposed to be fun!

That being said, I did not read through that tutorial entirely before I ran right out and bought all the things listed for materials and tools. Wrote 'em down and out the door I went. I wish I had taken just a little bit of time to do some checking into what I was buying to ensure that I was getting the most bang for my buck. It's hard to select a good rotary cutter and mat if you have no clear idea what you are about to do with them. I ended up having to do the research, anyway, and if I had done it beforehand, I could have saved myself some time and money. It does not help to ask someone else what they use, either, it's all very personal. Just do the research, people. Do it!

Several months before I started my quest to quilt, I had purchased a Singer 23 Stitch sewing machine with the intention of making curtains for our humble little house. It sat in a box in the basement, waiting for me to decide on a color scheme for our adjoining living and dining rooms, (I still haven't decided even though I cannot stand our off-white walls). Having it on hand, however, made it that much easier to jump right in with both feet. I knew the machine was pretty basic, but I hadn't wound a bobbin since I was a freshman in high school. Better that I practice a little before I got to those curtains! 

 With the most important tool already taken care of, the rest seemed fairly simple to me. List in hand, sans a couple of items that seemed to be more items of convenience than necessities, (yep, that was a mistake), I headed to my local Walmart. About 10 minutes later we were back in the car heading to a different Walmart because my neighborhood store doesn't have a fabric department, can you believe that? Another 45 minutes later, we were on our way home! I can't recall how much I spent, but I am positive it was more than I should have, and on all the wrong things, for the most part! In that minute, however, I was pleased as I could possibly be, and eager to get started! I emptied my bags out on the table and got to work! 

The fabric I chose was a small collection of coordinating pre-cut fat quarters, (in a peace, love and music theme) from Creative Cuts. They are readily available anywhere you shop for fabric, really. I love them, and not because they are good quality fabric, because, to be honest, they are not. I love them because they are pretty. They come in a hundred beautiful, neatly carded and easily stored designs that I just love to look at. Oh, and they are cheap. I use them, shamelessly, to get my fabric-fix.

---

I forgot in all of my excitement to do a few small, (but important) things. I did not have a pattern, and while it is not necessary to have a pattern to make a quilt, it's helpful to at least have in mind how large (or small) you would like your quilt to be. Using a pattern makes that a lot easier, since most patterns will tell you exactly how many yards of how many fabrics you will need. I did not have a design, no dimensions, no clue as to what yardage I was going to need. In retrospect it's probably a good thing that I did not attempt to calculate what I needed on my own for my first project. Had I realized the math involved I would have stopped then and there. Math gives me headaches, (unless it has to do with my money, then it only gives me headaches when I don't have what I need to get what I want). It all worked out in the end, but it did cause a few minor complications.

At this point, I still had not read through my directions entirely. I had looked at all of the pictures, and skimmed a few paragraphs here and there. It all looked pretty straight forward. Cut the fabric, sew it together, stitch it to the batting and backing, put on the binding.. done! No problem!

So I unpacked my sewing machine, spent a few minutes reminding myself how to make it work, (which was easier than I thought it would be - apparently I did learn something in school) and laid out all of my other newly acquired goodies on my dining room table. I got on the computer and began really reading the tutorial. After reading a few steps I was pretty sure I knew what I was doing, and I began...

To make a big huge mess.

And I will tell you all about it on Friday!

Where it all began...

It's all my daughter's fault.

See, I've never been particularly crafty. Artistic, yes, crafty, noooo. I don't glue-gun. I cringe at the thought of glitter and bling. No pipe cleaners, pom-poms, googly eyes and tissue paper. Not here, no way! The extent of my DIY is I can design a card in Photoshop, hit print (I CAN change the ink when it runs out) and fold it in half. Voila! Better than store-bought, am I right?

Our Stella

So when we were expecting my youngest daughter, Stella, and her baby shower was quickly approaching - people wanted to know - what was our "theme"?

Ugh, the theme!

I don't think people understand how truly important that small thing can be. If you have ever had a child, you might know what I am saying. It seems silly, almost, to stress over something that your baby isn't even going to be aware of. In all reality, it's not about the baby. It's about what the parents can tolerate looking at day in and day out; dressing the baby, washing the clothes and bedding, and perhaps even painted on the walls. You have to be careful with your theme selection, your sanity could depend upon it.

---

My boy, Killian

For my son, Killian, we had a Winnie the Pooh theme. (That was a selfish decision, really. Mommy loves that bear, and you can never have too much Pooh). Oh we had it all, wall-hangings, blankets, singing stuffed animals and clothing. Killian, now 13, would probably die from embarrassment if I mentioned it now, but he was my Piglet. Ok, he is STILL my Piglet, just a little more like a wild boar with his attitude and appetite!

---

Sass A. Frass (better known as Kassidy)

My first daughter, Kassidy, was easy. Butterflies! Lots and lots of butterflies! And PINK! TONS of it! We were so excited to have a girl, (although I was never much good at being one myself) we figured pink was key to nurturing a sweet and gentle disposition. So we swaddled that babe in as much pink as was humanly possible, gave her wings and hoped for the best! This was my lesson. I now hate butterflies, sick to death of them! She is 9, and I still can't stand them! She is also Lil Miss Sassy Pants, so that sort of blows my color theory out of the water.

---

Sephie Doodle

So then there was my Persephone. I am willing to admit that I got lazy with Sephie's theme. Pink and brown, because it was in abundance at the time and it complimented her ginger complexion. When she was born, I was a single mother just trying to make it through the day, so simple and easy was perfection. As we get closer to her 5th birthday and her extreme level of sauciness becomes more apparent, I've come to the conclusion that pink is evil. It should come with a warning label, for real. Keep your daughters sweet - don't do pink!

---

And then came Stella.

I tried to be a little more selective with a theme for her, she is our last baby, so I wanted to to do it right. No Pooh, butterflies and definitely not pink! We had considered owls, because owls are my personal favorite animal, and lately they are just everywhere you look, but that felt a little like choosing The Hundred Acre Woods for my boy, so we nixed it. We moved on to the idea of frogs - her Godmother LOVES frogs - but most of the items we found with froggies on them were geared for boys. I don't do animal prints, not a fan of Dora, Bubble Guppies, or Disney Princesses really and NO FREAKING PINK!

So the hunt was on to find the perfect theme. I searched through thousands (probably more like hundreds, but whatever) of crib sets online, hoping something would just grab my attention and I would just KNOW. Hours were spent scrolling through a sea of thumbnails....

And then I found it.

It was a patchwork crib set. I was in love! It wasn't particularly girly, there was no clear idea behind it, just a mish-mash of fabrics, sewn together in an aesthetically pleasing configuration that I was just wild about!

I had to have it.

Just had to!

Then I saw the price tag.

Mind you, this was not a handmade crib set. It was a mass produced interpretation of what a crib quilt should be. I may not have fully understood it, at the time, but spending $300 on something for an infant that really doesn't give a shit what she shits on, seemed - excessive.

It was a pieced set. I didn't really need the coordinating wall-hangings. Nor did I need the matching sheets, I could buy something that complimented the quilt and none would be the wiser. I remembered reading that they were now advising that you not use bumper pads - score! That left the "blanket". Singularly priced at near a hundred dollars, it still felt better than $300 for a bunch of crap I didn't really want or have use for. I added it to my registry and put it out of my mind.

Okay, no I didn't.

For days it nagged at me. That voice in my head likes to talk, (rarely shuts up, really) and it just wouldn't let it be. Over and over it reminded me that I had a brand new sewing machine in the basement. I had been looking for a good reason to open that box... then I countered with the best argument I could muster - if I pulled out that machine, my fiance would expect curtains and throw pillows and pretty little dresses for the girls, isn't that why we bought it in the first place? I then reminded myself that he is a very patient man and he still believes me when I tell him I'm working on it - it could be years before he really expected me to truly produce anything. (God love him, he is the best).

Our family!

And that was it. I went that very day and bought fabric, Googled some tutorials, and in a very short amount of time, I managed to create my very first quilt. It's nothing impressive, just a very simple 3" block patchwork, but that was enough.

I haven't stopped quilting since that day, and it's all Stella's fault.

I am always working on a quilt. If I'm not on my machine with it, I am designing a new one, researching fabric, attempting to learn a new technique.. it never ends.

My house is never clean anymore, and my family has had to forfeit the dining room table, but I am happy!

I still don't have curtains, by the way.. and I still blame the baby.

My next post will be a walkthrough of making that very first quilt, wooo!

What the Filth Flarn Filth am I doing here?

I woke up the other morning and said to myself, "I should start a blog."

I got up, let the dog out, and sat down to rouse myself with a cup of coffee and I realized - I don't know the first thing about writing a blog.

I'm a stay-at-home mom of 4, running a small crafting business out of my dining room, barely squeaking by with the housekeeping and surviving solely on caffeinated soda, coffee and peanut butter sandwiches since my youngest was born and a good night's sleep moved out to make room, when would I ever have the time?

And even if I did have time, what the hell would I say?

I am no authority on anything. I know a whole lot about a whole lot, to be sure, I've worn my fair share of hats. It actually took a bit of work to figure out some of those hats didn't fit like they should, (a couple of required a bit of therapy, even), pulling them out and dusting them off - even for display may not be such a good idea. And really, who wants to read a blog about hats?

I finally realized, all the things that I do, I didn't know how to do before I did them. Half of them I wasn't even aware I had an interest in them until I did. Besides, who wants to be an authority on anything, anyway? I think it's best to concede there is always something more to learn, something new to be known. I have never been a huge fan of limitations, really.

So. Lacking know-how, no time, nothing to say...

This should be the best blog ever, right?

I may be without a clue, but so much can come from that! I am determined to learn new things, improve myself and my crafting skills, raise my kids as best I can, plan a wedding and grow my business. Not necessarily in that order and I am sure I am leaving a thing or two out, but that is a pretty good start.

I have so much planned for my little blog, and while I can't promise that I won't show you anything you haven't already seen or that my content will always be rated for younger audiences, or even possess good grammar, it should at least be good for a laugh.